To my Love,
I could
write a million things right now but I know none of them will be enough. I’ve been right there the whole time. Sometimes
holding your hand, sometimes looking in your eyes, and sometimes walking away
because it’s best for both of us.
Nothing I could say on Mother’s Day will ever bring back what you lost
that morning. I only promise to never
stop trying.
A
mother is something you always wanted to be.
I know that it is all you ever wanted.
I know you lost that part of your soul and although we don’t know what
the future will hold, I know that little piece that Sweet P created will never
come back. I know how that feels. I know
hun, that’s what makes life so hard.
What
you lost as a mother is what you also gained.
You did more for your daughter in 23 months than some could ever
imagine. Cleaning out blowouts, wiping
up those damn bananas she’d spit out, and washing those bottles day in and day
out was the easy part. That was just
part of the job. That day you earned the
title of Mommy, was the day you started something that will never be forgotten. You did way more than what was published in
newspapers and on TV. You showed what it
meant to love someone more than anything in the world. You held back tears in times that needed you
to be tough. You held onto her when she
needed it the most. I will always say
that she was a Daddy’s girl, but she was her mother’s daughter through and
through. Penelope was lucky to have you
as her own, and she knew that. She told
us that morning how much she loved us, but always you first.
All
those signs we see are there to let us know how much she loves us and is watching
over us. They are there because you look
for them and she knows that.
This day
might not ever have the same meaning or be celebrated like it once was, but
that’s ok. It can be whatever you want
it to be because you are Penelope’s Mom and always will be. No one or no thing can ever take that from
you. I will celebrate it because I
celebrate you and what you mean to me. I
love you.
-Andy
(with help from P)
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